It is a very hard pill to swallow to know that we won’t be seeing you again.
It is so tough to admit that you are really gone.
You are only 33.
You promised my brother you’d be there for his graduation and his wedding.
You asked me how I was going in uni, even though I was struggling.. I said “Okay” and you said to “Keep going. That’s good”.
I miss your jokes. I miss the Monopoly sessions and the cheats you used to teach us how to play.
Your birthday was only a day after mine.
We had the same zodiac.
My brother and I used to wake you up by jumping on your bed as kids…
You showed us your leechbites that you got during the camp and how it changed your life.
When the Cory Monteith news hit, I thought of you. When they took Andrew Chan and Myuran Sukumaran’s life, I thought of you. I didn’t think the same thing would’ve taken you.
You were clean. We thought you were clean. We were supposed to be together again end of this year.
I couldn’t sleep last night. I could only hear your voice in all the family gatherings we had. You were always the highlight of the party.
You left too soon. You shouldn’t have. Life is so unfair.
This was not the ending that it should’ve been. But then again God has plans and I pray you are in a better place with less suffering. I pray that God is merciful and put an end to all that pain.
They say time will heal. I pray that it’ll be fast.
I promise Jianshen will be alright. Maowen and I will look out for him always. Know that he has a family and always loved and you will be proud of him. He will have the future you always wanted for him. We promise.
We will look after Wendy too. I am sorry for the hurt the family has caused between you two and I promise that she will feel belonged. She has and always will be part of the family.
You will be terribly missed.